It sounds like you've faced some deep emotional challenges that led you to stop expressing your feelings. There can be many reasons why someone might stop sharing their emotions, such as:
- Fear of Judgment: Maybe you felt misunderstood or judged when you opened up, making you hesitant to share again.
- Past Hurt or Betrayal: If someone you trusted mishandled your vulnerability, it can create a barrier to expressing your emotions openly in the future.
- Emotional Exhaustion: Talking about feelings can be draining, especially if it seems like you're not being heard or validated. Sometimes, people stop sharing as a way to protect themselves from further emotional fatigue.
- Fear of Rejection: You might have felt that sharing your feelings could push others away or make you seem too vulnerable, so you chose silence to avoid that risk.
- Belief that Others Won’t Understand: Sometimes it feels easier to keep things to yourself because you don't believe anyone will truly understand what you're going through.
- Protecting Your Heart: After being hurt, many people build walls to protect their emotions, believing that staying silent keeps them safer from further pain.
It’s understandable to withdraw after going through difficult experiences, but holding everything inside can also weigh heavily over time. If you feel comfortable, gradually finding someone who you trust to listen—whether a friend, partner, or even a professional—might help release some of that emotional burden.
Do you feel that this silence has brought you a sense of protection, or do you feel that it’s also holding you back in some way?